The insomniac kid is once again awake.

Lately, I think I am once again becoming insomniac. Hahaha. And because of this, I tend to bother people who’s also awake :D :D :D Anyways, one of the people I bothered suggested that whenever my insomnia attacks, I should do something progressive. :D

So one night, it attacked and I did this collage that was inspired by the works of my cousin’s friend (who’s really really really creative!) and sooo…. TADAAA:

COLLAGE101Locations: Bohol (Central Visayas), Mt. Batulao (Batangas), Puerto Princessa (Palawan), Puerto Galera (Oriental Mindoro), Mt Pinatubo (Pampanga)

 

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The Sudden Hike – Mt. Batulao!

December 6, 2013 – I was in school, my group and I had just finish reporting for one of my economics class, when I received a call from one of my cousins. I rejected the call and texted her that I was in class. After a while, another cousin of mine (the older sister) called me too – so I left the room and answered.

Little did I know, that call would change my plans for the weekend. 

When I answered, my cousin asked me if I wanted to go hiking – I was actually okay with it, but then, I asked when… SHE SAID IT WAS TOMORROW – DECEMBER 7, 2013. HAHAHAHA.

At this point, I was really torn.

I wanted to since its another experience. Another adventure. Plus, it was free – since a friend of my cousin had already paid for that expenses and he couldn’t make it on the last minute, so my cousins were finding someone who could fill his place. THANK YOU KUYA DENSIL for the free hike! Hahaha :)

However, I still haven’t asked permission from my parents (which technically wouldn’t be that much of a problem since my parents are really nice – thank you mom and dad! Hahaha). But then, I had a quiz (for my economics subject) on Monday and it was my finals for one of my advertising majors on Tuesday.

Since it was Friday that time, then the hiking was on Saturday, that would leave me with Sunday as my resting and cramming day.

To add to my pressure, I had to decide within the hour. 

GAHH. Panic!!! But then again, it was free and free adventures are very rare. So in the end, I said YES. (Hoping that everything will end well and I won’t regret coming) And so, Saturday – December 7, 2013 – my cousins, two of their friends and I conquered Mt. Batulao. MT BATULAO 2013-20I didn’t know anything about the place. All I knew was the name – Mt. Batulao. I didn’t even know it’s level of difficulty. I asked my cousin if it was similar to Mt. Pinatubo (which we had already visited) and being the gullible and trusting person I was, I believed her when she said yes.

Oh how wrong she was.

It was another level higher than Pinatubo! And for an unfit and unhealthy person like me – who rarely exercises… IT WAS REALLY A CHALLENGE. HAHAHA. MT BATULAO 2013Our trek began on cemented pavement which was really okay however, you need to be mindful of your steps because you might step on clumps of poo!!! SERIOUSLY! The walk was more like a ‘Don’t-step-onthe-poop’ challenge. Hahaha. MT BATULAO 2013-2 The walk was kinda long but you won’t realize that in the beginning (I only realized it on the way back since we were really tired. On our way back, it was really funny because I felt kinda relieved when I saw scattered poops on the road because it was a sign that we are near the end point of the journey… gah, now I should stop talking about poops!) MT BATULAO 2013-10 Of course we would have our obligatory group photo! Hahahaha. The challenge haven’t began yet so we still look fresh and all. Err, I forgot, Ate Aesa isn’t in the shot since she’s taking the pic. MT BATULAO 2013-16 Let the games begin! 

So of course, our hike began. It was really grassy – (to the point that when I went back home, my dad asked what did I see… all I said was, GRASS GRASS GRASS! Hahaha. Because, it’s true! Everywhere you look, there would be grass!) I told my cousin that I would always prefer Pinatubo because of the magnificent view and all – but what she said made sense to me and made me appreciate Mt. Batulao. She told me that it wasn’t about the view, because this time, it was about the thought that you’ve conquered these heights – (Na, wow, nagawa ko yun. Naakyat ko yun) It’s about your achievement :) (Which really means a lot for a person like me since I’m really not fit HAHAHAHA) 23 There were parts wherein the path that you would walk on seemed like less than 12 inches in width (so you need to really be careful since you might fall on either sides) was really scary. 25 26 The walk towards the peak was about 4-5 hours – depending on your speed of course. Leg cramps and the windy/cool weather might be some of your concerns – so just keep that in mind.  29 44 45 But of course, we would have our stop overs! HAHAHA and photoshoot. This is the reason why we’re always the last ones to arrive. MT BATULAO 2013-39 That’s my cousin and her friend performing their usual antics and stunts at the edge of the mountain. Then there’s Kuya Lester, our guide, taking their photo.  MT BATULAO 2013-43 MT BATULAO 2013-23 Finally!  A COMPLETE GROUP SHOT :)MT BATULAO 2013-25 This was Kuya Lester’s idea! HAHAHA. A fake jump shot! MT BATULAO 2013-50 Of course, being the vain person I am, I wanted to have my solo pictures…MT BATULAO 2013-51 … and jump shots. HAHAHA MT BATULAO 2013-53Then here’s a shot of me trying to levitate with Ate Carla, my cousin’s friend, photo bombing it. HAHA. MT BATULAO 2013-52Then here’s my favorite shot of mine :D :D :D After a moment of rest, we continued our challenge. MT BATULAO 2013-64 MT BATULAO 2013-68 MT BATULAO 2013-65 MT BATULAO 2013-66 MT BATULAO 2013-67After 1234567890years, we finally reached the peak! Here’s a taste of the view up there! :)Peak view1 (4) Peak view1 (3) Peak view1 (2) Peak view1 (1) Then a group photo with the other hikers! YAYY!MT BATULAO 2013-92 Here’s Ate Nikka and I :D MT BATULAO 2013-86 Here’s Ate Via and I enjoying the view at the edge of the peak.MT BATULAO 2013-81 Weee, a photo of us having lunch at the peak! 51 Then… here’s one of my favorites <3 Even though I’m not in the shot. HAHAHA. I liked this the best because I think the picture really captured my cousin’s personality of being strong and daring as well as her thirst for adventure.47 We only stayed at the peak for a while. After that, we started to go back using a different trail. Personally, this trail was my favorite because we experienced going down on a steep cliff. This was also the part wherein the wind really blew hard so you need to get your jackets ready! HAHAHA. MT BATULAO 2013-101MT BATULAO 2013-97This was my favorite part! It was kinda scary at first but I truly appreciated this part of the hike! :))
MT BATULAO 2013-105On the way back, I started to feel how tired I was. My knees started aching! HAHAHA.

Tired EndAnd yes, I was really really really tired.

Mt. Batulao was an amazing and fulfilling experience. I never would have thought that I will be able to do it – but just like the saying ‘Just do it’ – I just did. I reached the peak!

Was I happy that I agreed to join the sudden hike? Of course!
Plus, it was free!
Would I repeat Batulao again? Err, honestly? I think once is enough.
But, we’ll see! Hahaha.

So, where’s the next adventure? :)

Disclaimer: Photos are not mine. Just got them from Ate Aesa and Kuya Lester

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Dear you,

If you are reading this today, then it might mean that you are once again facing a hurdle in your life.

Pehaps, just like now, you are thinking what decision to make and what action to take – remember that there is a thin line between the two, this you should not forget. Maybe, you’ve even approached people asking them their opinion about the matter or what would they do if they were in your shoes. They can even share similar stories – in which you may, at some point, either be inspired by or rely on. With this, you need to remember that the story of others is their story. You are making you own, right here, right now – your life, your own story. There is a limitation on how others affect and help you.

Others’ advice can sum up with these things: (as generic as it seems)

1. Follow your heart.
2. Only you will know what to do and what’s best for you.

Risky? Yes, of course it is, since it depends on you. You take the responsibility. Scary? I know, since I am you. But you know what? Life is scary and its all about taking risks. So when faced with a hurdle like this, what would you do?

1. Set or remember your goals. (Believe me, at this point, when I’m writing this – we are so lost. So note to self, we seriously need to set our goals – both immediate and long term)
2. Know the situation. (Think back on what had happen; what caused it to happen)
3. Lay down your options. (Know which action you may take, know their pros and cons)

However in order to do all these properly, you need to do one more thing - know yourself… (in this, we are still working on and always be working on together, you and me, right?)

When you think that you are ready – mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually stable – then make your decision. (At this point, I am not yet emotionally stable… so… yeah I haven’t made my final decision yet)

Know that in whatever decision you make, there would always be a possibility of regret, this you should be aware of. There would always be a trade off; something you have to live with and be accountable of. But remember, ‘regret’ lies in the past in which you should not live in nor dwell on but should learn from. After all, there is a reason for everything. Know this, in every hurdle you face – there lies an opportunity you should realize and you should take.

Happiness and contentment is a vague concept. But it is something that you need to find deep within – hence the need to repeat the line: Know yourself.

I know we are always in the process of ‘getting to know you’ and ‘we’ are something that is constanly changing – and no matter how scary ‘change’ may be, it is something inevitable. So if you do change: be better. Improve and grow. Do not settle. You can try something different, something new to you. Try to get out of your comfort zone, Ry.

Lastly, don’t forget to always find a peaceful time – both for yourself and to talk to Him. (which I would be doing after writing this…)

With love,
The you that’s also lost right now
(01-07-14)

“Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.” – Steve Jobs

“Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.” – Soren Kierkegaard

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2013: Bottle of Happiness!

So, a friend recently told me about this thing called “Bottle of Happiness”. Well, it started when we were able to finish a bottle of Vodka and she told us that she’ll use it as her “Bottle of Happiness” – so I was like, ‘What’s that?’ –  then she told us its a bottle you fill with your happy moments for the year. Its like, you write the ‘happy event’ on a sheet of paper then drop it in the bottle and by the end of the year, hopefully, the bottle is full and you read it. So I was like, ‘I wanna try it too!’

2013: Bottle of Happiness

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January 2, 2013 – Watched Disney on Ice: Princesses and Heroes

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January 3, 2013 – Bonding with Jonah and Aly (after so many years)

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January 5, 2013 – Meet and Greet with Dia Frampton @ Hard Rock Cafe, Makati

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January 25, 2013 – Overnight at Karissa Cruz’s House

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February 5, 2013 – Ice Cream Making and Bonding with Rizza

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February 9, 2013 – We officially moved in to our new home!

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February 16-17, 2013 – Had the first of the (hopefully) many sleepovers with my cousins. (Ate Joy, Ate Nica, Ate Via)285674_10151347196484543_2133234092_n

February 23, 2013 – Lola’s 91st Birthday Celebration + Overnight with cousins (Ate Joy, Ate Nica, Ate Via, Ate Aika, Joash)45394_10151510537029558_1516263957_n

March 10, 2013 – The Siosons’ Bonding + Ate Jac

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March 30, 2013 – Baked Crinkles and Chocolate Chip Cookies with cousins! + Overnight!485357_10151633975603060_2081589150_n

April 12-13, 2013 – Group study and sleepover with Pat and Jella

April 14, 2013 – Surprised Mom and Dad with Breakfast in bed <3

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April 21-22, 2013 – Puerto Galera with cousins + Kuya D and Ate A

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April 25-26-27, 2013 – Went to Puerto Princesa, Palawan

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April 27, 2013 – Snorkeling in Isla Pandan @ Puerto Princesa, Palawan

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May 2, 2013 – Baking + Swimming + Bonding Day with Tobs and Kace

May 15, 2013 – Date with my best friend, Yns! (Lunch  @ Razons and Chill @ Starbucks)

July 4 , 2013 – Lunch @ Bon Chon and went to the Job Expo with Ate Via

August 2, 2013 – Mom’s Birthday + Overnight with Cousins

August 9, 2013 – Went to Jez’s house and tallied ADSERCH surveys

August 19 – 22, 2013 – SUSPENDED WEEK. Stayed @ Home for more than 3 days at last! :)

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August 28 – 29, 2013 – Trina’s 18th Birthday Celebration :)

October 8, 2013 – Got a cupcake from Chessy! 

October 17, 2013 – Karaoke with Cars, Abbey and Anne

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October 24-25, 2013 – Overnight @ Abbey’s

November 13, 2013 – Shopped donations for Tacloban with Cars and Kat @ Fortune Mart

November 23, 2013 – Overnight with Cousins

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December 7, 2013 – Went hiking @ Mt. Batulao with Cousins + Ate Carla & Ate Aesa

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December 13, 2013 – Brought Yns to our new house for the first time!

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December 20, 2013 – I received this awesome review! Thank you so much.

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December 20, 2013 – ADWRITE Finals and Last day of FINALS!

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December 25, 2013 – Christmas! :)

December 27, 2013 – Shopping Daaaaaayyyy!!! Got new shoes and clothes!

Influenced by Karissa Cruz

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This is nothing but a confession.

I was too naive to believe that ‘everything’s going to be okay
Too wishful to think that ‘nothing will change’
Too conceited to imagine that once I return, it would be back to ‘normal’

But then again, what is normal?

It all started with a simple distance.
A distance that I kept on dragging further, thinking that I needed it.
A distance that, I now realize, created a ‘wall’
A wall that now separates us; despite the fact that it’s invisible

Isn’t it funny how something that is not there be so powerful to create a separation?

Don’t get me wrong; don’t ever think that you didn’t matter.
You did. You do. You still do. I know you do
Maybe I sound like I’m convincing myself – or you – or maybe us both
But don’t think that I don’t miss the times I had you
When you were there for me and I, you

Don’t think that I’m not aware that I lost you
Nor that I don’t feel any regret – because believe me, I have too much of that already
The moment I became lost – I lost all, not just you

It hurts to think that there are times I see you with her or hear her stories about you
Sometimes I can’t help but think: ‘I should have been there’
There would be a little voice in my head saying ‘I should have been that one’

But you know, I told myself that it was just the devil inside me speaking
The jealousy, the possessiveness, the envy – the green monster
So, I did my best to get rid of it
To bury it at the back of my head

Little did I know, ignoring it would create something
Just like falling for it; which I had learn in my past relationships
Both creates a problem
Damn, if only I compromised with that little monster, maybe we won’t be where we are now

But really, where is ‘now’?

All I know is, now, what hurts the most is to admit that, at some point, I’ve given up
But remained in denial of that fact
Maybe it was regret or the pain or even the guiltiness
Maybe it was a combination of all these that had led to indifference
Indeed, I’ve became indifferent – and now, I realize how scary this feeling can be
How this feeling can eat up everything you have
Indifference makes you feel less

Yes, it dulls the pain, the regret, the sadness
But along with dulling all those unpleasant feelings
It also dulls the pleasant ones – happiness, love, bliss
Indeed, indifference can be the opposite of all
May it be love or hate, happiness or sadness
Indifference makes you numb

And later on, I noticed that there’s no more point in dwelling
No more reason to be stuck, since in my eyes you were fine
I convinced myself to ‘Keep Moving Forward’
Just like in the movie, Meet the Robinsons
Or ‘Just Keep Swimming‘ like in Finding Nemo
Silly me didn’t realize that you could do the same too.
And now, I just realized, you did.
Give up, that is.

And now, we are swimming in different tides
Different currents that even brought us further apart.
You, at some point, had the courage to swim out of yours and reach out to mine.
Stupid me didn’t have the initiative to meet you halfway.
Too expectant to believe that you can manage.
That you can understand.
That you won’t get tired.
That you….

So this was the problem…
Scratch ‘was’: this is the problem.
I always kept on saying ‘you can’
It was always ‘you’

I kept on pushing the responsibility
I kept on passing the blame
I was too stuck in my own introverted world
And now, at some point I think I’m lost
I am at a point where I honestly don’t know what to do
Both in my own world and the real world…

This is nothing but a confession.
Or maybe even a cry for help…
But at the same time, this is also an apology.
Let this be my apology… I am sorry.

And I miss you.

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Chewing Gum.

Success is like chewing a gum – you taste the bliss when you attain it.
You chew and savor it but there will always be a limit.
Later on, the taste will pass and all you are left with is a sticky chewing gum.

This will leave you craving for more… you’ll want to taste it again.

Failure is like stepping on a gum – you feel it in every step you take.
It’s like a leech on your shoe that you would want to get rid of.
The sticky-ness would always be felt and remembered.

This will make you mindful of the steps you take… careful that you won’t step on a gum again.

Just a random thought….

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Insight #3: “Sometimes ‘your best’ isn’t really ‘the’ best.”

This is nothing but a rant.
The thing is, the world is really unfair. I think it’s a fact that we have to deal with. I guess, its a sad reality – but it’s reality nonetheless.
Maybe what bothers me is that, it’s irritating – that even if you’ve given what you can, it’s still not enough.
Then there’s the fact that it hurts, cause a part of you admits that ‘your best’ is truly not ‘the’ best.
Then again, it boils down to that thought… it’s unfair. Sigh. This rant… is sooooo… =))))

‘I did my best, but I guess my best wasn’t good enough – Just Once by James Ingram’

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